“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb” Psalm 139:13
I don’t know if I’m alone in this or if you’ve ever felt like you were just part of the crowd when God created you. What I mean is that of course I know God loves me and created me as an individual, but that’s not the headspace I normally reside in. To think that the God who created the entire universe, the Rocky Mountains, the ocean, the vast (and boring) plains of Kansas also created me hurts my head when I stop to actually think about the implications of that. When I do think about the fact that He created me to be different than anyone else in the world, that means I was created specifically and intentionally for something that is bigger than just me. It means, I’m not just part of this nebulous cloud that was all born the same day as me where I can just blend in and try to keep the status quo. God created me as an individual and loves me as an individual. That statement is hard for me to hear and believe, so often I find myself wanting to blend into the crowd, it’s easier that way, there’s anonymity and I don’t have to be accountable for as many of my actions because I assume they don’t stand out to God because I’m just this tiny little blip in all of humanity. But when I’m confronted with this verse, I have to come to grips that that simply isn’t the case.
I’m not a knitter, but I have friends that are, and when they knit, it’s not something they do because they have to, it’s always an expression of love. And that’s what God does when He creates us, we are an expression of His love. When my friends knit, they don’t just snap their fingers and wham, here’s a new scarf, it takes time, patience, planning. Do I think of myself that way? To be honest, not often at all. Do I really believe that God planned me, everything about me on purpose and took time to create every little thing about me? Often I don’t, but when He does give me clarity that He created me, me specifically, it makes me stop and wonder. What would my life look like if I truly believed that I was created as an individual because God wanted me? How would my actions change? How would I treat those around me differently? What would I spend more time on and probably just as important, what would I spend less time on?
Do you believe that you were created on purpose for a purpose? If you did, how would that change how you lived the rest of your life?
written by Emily Roark