written by Matt Boness
“You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all of your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
When I was a kid, we used to play these epic games of hide and seek. I grew up in the mountains of the southwest and out there, you practically had an endless National Forest that you could play in. Especially as a Boy Scout on camping trips, I would join 20 or 30 other Scouts, at night among the trees, playing all sorts of versions of hide and seek.
If I had to choose a side to be on, I would have always wanted to hide. Being the seeker always felt too vulnerable. Everyone who was hiding could see you. They knew where you were but you didn’t know where they were. If you didn’t end up finding everyone who was hiding it was almost kind of shameful. Your friends would come out hollering that they weren’t found and their hiding place was the best. I much preferred to be the one coming out hollering because I had the perfect hiding spot and hadn’t been found that round.
However, most of the time, people weren’t found for two reasons. One, they cheated. They either went out of bounds or moved around after the seeker started looking. Or two, the seeker gave up too quickly and didn’t make the effort.
Both sound like us as we search for Jesus. We are either hiding because of our shame, vulnerability, or guilt and we don’t want Jesus to find us. Or, as the verse from Jeremiah says, our heart just isn’t in it. We don’t really want to find Jesus because being the seeker means that we have to be vulnerable and let Jesus know where we are even if we don’t know where he is. It’s hard to let Him in.
Jeremiah 29 continues to say, “’I will be found by you,’ declares the Lord, ‘and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the places where I have driven you’” (v.14) What if we could believe in the result instead of the process? That being vulnerable and seeking Him was about restoration. A restoration of place and purpose and fortune. Would we desire to seek him then?
Lord, You are good. You restore us to greater things. Help us to be vulnerable for seeking You with our whole heart so that we may find You. Amen.