By: Katie Choi
This week I was all set to write about how organizing can be a way for me to use my creativity and bring life into my home. For me, organizing really is life giving. I had this grand plan of bible verses I was going to include. I was going to talk about the first book of the bible, Genesis, and talk about the creation story a little bit. All obviously very thoughtful, academic, and inspiring. Let me just say, most humbly of course, that it was going to be something. After you got finished reading it, you would have, naturally, chest bumped a loved one and gotten to work on your pantry. But, something about that didn’t feel right. I wasn’t translating my thoughts into something that felt meaningful or real or helpful in light of what’s been going on.
We have tried to use this time on Fridays to share things that might speak some sort of truth into people’s lives right now, and we are navigating all that imperfectly. That kind of feels like life as a whole right now (and always). We are navigating everything pretty imperfectly.
This whole week has brought about new feelings of uncertainty as things open back up. We are moving from away from ‘continuing community at home’ to ‘continuing community with one foot at home and the other foot dipping its big toe back into the broader community. I know for me I am thinking through a lot of questions and scenarios. When are we going back into the office? When will we go to church again? Do I invite people over for dinner? How many people? Are people going to judge the decisions that I make? You might be asking yourself the same or different questions, but we are all starting to readjust, again. And, we are going to navigate all of that imperfectly, too. So if we rest in that and letting those feelings sink in, it feels messy.
Likely, you had an idea of what 2020 was going to mean to you and your family and loved ones, and the reality looks much different. Maybe you had projects or trips or goals that also just don’t feel right anymore. Maybe your hand was forced a little bit and you had to switch gears. Whatever it may be, I bet you can think of examples in your own life where this hits home.
Rather than craft a “perfect” blog post and rather than have all my questions answered about the future, the simple thing that I want to cling to is that grace prevails and never runs out. It feels like a basic lesson but one I often have trouble remembering. Lamentations 3, verses 22 and 23 tell me this. “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” I want those words to wash over me and sink deep into my soul.
So if I accept this and live this out, what do I want to be true of myself? I want to love God with all my heart, I want to love and care for my family with all of my heart, and I want to serve and love others the best that I can. Each day that is going to look different. Some days I am going to be able to give more and do that with a glad heart and other days it is going to take all my patience just to go through the motions. But, the love that I receive will never change. It will be perfect and enough every day. The same is offered to you. Psalm 136 reminds us of this over and over, “His steadfast loves endures forever.”
This week, I gave myself grace, and I more accurately expressed what’s on my heart. I tried to reorder the clutter inside my mind instead of my closets. And for a while, it is just going to stay messy. But if I take a minute to remember these simple things that I know to be true, that’s a good place to start.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
I am praying with you and for you and wishing you peace.